Tomorrow night starts my first big gig since the release of "Still Standing." I'm leading worship for Mt. Hermon Christian Camp in the Santa Cruz Mountains. It's a beautiful place. Luanne and I have taken the kids there for a week for the past two summers. We were just there in July. This is their last Family Camp of the summer... Only four days, Friday through Monday. I am taking four musicians with me, Travis Smith on bass, Janet O'Brien on percussion, John Dearborn on guitar and Luanne on vocals. We've practiced a few times, and I think it's going to be great.
There's such a funny line between worship leading and performing. I have a deep desire to do well, to impress people, to play the piano and sing with excellence. I want the band to sound great. I want people to hear my voice and my songs and want to hear more, want to check out the site, want to buy the CD... and yet, I know it's not about me. The packaging of worship is a common thing these days. Worship leaders are treated like (and act like) rock stars. There are "worship concerts" where people scream and cheer for the performers more than focus on God...
Truth is, the prideful part of me *loves* attention. I love to have the affirmation of people and the cheers of the crowd. God, help me to humble myself. May these songs lead people to YOU. May this weekend honor and glorify YOU. All I can do is honestly be myself and try to focus the attention on You. Thank You for using me in all my weakness.